Midnight Sun put me to sleep

I am a fool for reading this. I wanted to salsify my curiosity for Midnight Sun, having read the leaked version long ago, but tbh it was not worth it.

Any enthusiasm I had for this book turned into boredom, and well, if you want to find out what went wrong, continue reading.

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Edward sucks, human Jacob is awesome, and I wish Bella would love herself. 😭😭😭

At 12 I proclaimed myself team Edward forever. Now at 22 I am not so loyal.

It’s a wolf thing

Today I will be reviewing the second installment in the twilight series, New Moon. Check out my review of Twilight here.

New Moon was my least favorite book in the series back when I was a teen, mostly because Edward was absent for most of it. As an adult, I have made peace with this book and have also realized that Edward is low key trash.

New Moon begins with Bella dreaming about becoming an old lady while Edward remains youthful. She wakes up from this dream, stressed out because it’s her birthday and she’s officially older than Edward. Later at school, she compares Edward to a pagan god and beats herself up for not measuring up to Edward.

“I pulled into the familiar parking lot behind Forks High School and spotted Edward leaning motionlessly against his polished silver Volvo, like a marble tribute to some forgotten pagan god of beauty”

S. Meyer

Honey no! Love yourself!

Bella has some insecurities about their relationship and rightfully so, how do you date an immortal? You can’t.

After school, Bella forces Edward to sit and watch the 1960’s version of Romeo and Juliet. It’s during this rewatch that Edward begins to tell Bella what exactly happened last Spring when James was hunting her and Bella like the caring person she is, ran away from her bodyguards, Alice and Jasper, to meet up with James. Edward recalls the sheer amount of hopelessness that he was feeling after losing Bella for those short hours, and he even goes as far as to tell her that he contemplated suicide if he hadn’t reached Bella in time. Edward tells Bella how easy it is for humans to die while a vampire can only really die via the Volturi.

I wanted to bring up this scene, not because of the sensitive topic but because it felt a bit manipulative to me. Sure Edward has the right to express his feelings but to say that human life is far easier to take just made me realize that their relationship is toxic.

Fast forward to her birthday party, Jasper almost bites her, Edward pushes Bella into a glass table, Bella ends up with stitches, and this incident convinces Edward that they need to break up.

So how does he do it?

By leaving her in the woods with no way to get back home!!!!

What a caca head.

Bella falls into a depression because Edward was her entire world, and the break up devastates her. Eventually, Bella pieces herself back together and decides to reach out to her old friend Jacob Black. Jacob is 16, at this point and maybe he’s a little naïve, and maybe Bella takes advantage of his kindness, but Jacob’s company helps Bella’s loneliness. And for that reason, I switched to Team Jacob. Their relationship was more friends to potential lovers but, we don’t get to see that happen.

Although, I praised Jacob for his actions that all changes when he is initiated into the pack. I quickly jumped ships when Jacob turned into a wolf and decided to ghost Bella, essentially taking notes from Edward. After Jacob’s transformation, he forgets all about being there for Bella and starts to focus more on the pack. Jacob’s attitude grows worse once Edward comes back. He even goes as far as to break the pact he made with Bella by snitching on her to Charlie about the motorbike she had Jake fix up for her just so Bella would be grounded.

As for Edward, Bella forgives him but she is hesitant to trust him again. Edward is aware of this and begins to communicate with her more. Although Edward still sucks in my opinion he does earn back some points for regretting the pain he put Bella through and apologizing.

I will rate New Moon as 3/5 Stars.

Rating: 3 out of 5.

This book was far more easy to maintain my attention and I loved all the scenes with Jacob and his friends.

Also we cannot forget that Charlie Swan is a great dad. Shout out to him for chewing Edward a new one and being awesome.

Stay tune for my review of Eclipse! I plan on reading it soon.

Until then continue living in libros,


I read Twilight and my eyes didn’t burn


Stephenie Meyer

Total pages 498

My rating 4 stars

I dream about being with you forever

Hello readers and twi-hards,

So quick disclaimer this is not my first dive into twilight. I actually got swept up in the twilight craze when the movie came out and after watching it I ended up diving into the series. Twilight holds a special place in my heart, mostly because it opened my eyes to literature and made me want to read more books.

However, after I got to high school I got slapped in the face with Twilight hate so I distanced myself from the series. Wasn’t too hard to do since by then I was a wattpad addict.

But now I’m in my last year in college and I like to think I have come to block out the pressure from others. I mean I love YA books but I’m always reading classic literature for school because that is what is considered scholarly. But I don’t really care now a days if I’m seen clutching a YA novel while walking around campus. So, after seeing a fellow instagramer, myhoneyreads, talk about wanting to reread Twilight I dmed her and said we should buddy read it. So here we are.

So my intial thoughts after the first chapter were: I’m so bored. I don’t remember these books being so boring.

But since I like to torture myself I decided to kept reading and chapter 2 was a lot better and so was the chapter 3 and before you know it I was hooked.

Now one of the big questions I had about diving into Twilight was whether I was still on Team Edward. I loved Edward because he was polite and mature. However, I noticed that Edward is initially really moody and although that is because he is trying to keep Bella at a distance, Bella is super persistent and manages to worm her way into Edward’s life. However, as their relationship progressed I noticed that Edward was still a bit of a shit head. And by that I mean he’s kind of arrogant.

“Drunk?” I objected.

“You’re intoxicated by my very presence.”

Plus there’s that whole scene where they kiss for the first time and Edward gets pissed off at Bella because she was too into their kiss. Although, Edward claims he’s not mad at her but rather himself. I was put off by this scene because Bella is just trying to have a normal teenage relationship.

So am I still Team Edward? After this first book definitely not. I think I’m more on Bella’s side because like Bella, I was also mad at Edward when he was being super confusing.

As for their Love story. I really wasn’t feeling it. I don’t know if I am use to slow burns and angst fictions now. But for me it felt like Bella and Edward fell in love very fast. I felt what they really had for each other was a fascination. Edward is intrigued that Bella’s blood entices him and that she’s overall an old soul. And Bella is intrigued by Edward because he is mysterious and handsome.

But their love story itself, felt a bit rushed. Right from the beginning we know that Bella is infatuated with Edward especially after he disappears and heads to Alaska for a bit. It was weird because after he came back they started flirting a bit and snapping at each other. Then once Bella finds out that Edward’s a vampire they start dating soon after. So that felt a bit fast for me.

Now here are some things that hit me sideways while rereading. First, Lauren. I know right who is she? I don’t remember a Lauren in the movies. Well she’s not in the movie. Lauren is the mean girl in Bella’s friend group. I think Lauren is meant to represent another Rosalie type character or as a foil to Jessica. But other than that I’m not sure what her purpose in this first book was as she is kind of a background character. Second, Jacob Black has sisters. Two older twin sisters who do not live in Washington. Whoa right? I wonder what his sister would think about the Cullens. The third and last thing that kind of blew my mind during this reread was Bella’s topic about her Shakespeare paper.

“Wednesday?” He frowned. “That’s not good…What are you writing yours on?”

“Whether Shakespeare’s treatment of the female character is misogynistic?”

So this blew my mind because I didn’t expect this from Bella. However, I think I should have since although she’s in charge of cooking for her and Charlie it’s mainly because she refuses to eat the junk food that Charlie has been eating, she’s not afraid to talk back to Edward or Jacob’s dad, Billy, when he tries to persuade her to drop Edward. Even towards the end when Edward is so focused on getting Bella to leave Washington so that James doesn’t find her, she convinces Edward that his plan sucks and hers is better. So what I’m saying is Bella does have some agency even though a lot of people argue she’s fulfills a traditional women’s role in this series. I guess I’ll have to read the rest of the books again to find out. But for now I think I might try to tackle my tbr pile for the rest of the year.